Tag Archives: depression

You’re Pregnant!

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Yes. You ARE.

No, I am not pregnant. Maybe you are, and maybe this just might be your first baby…congratulations!! Becoming a mom for the first time (and second, third, etc.) is an amazing, life-changing experience! I know, I know…everyone says that. If you had a dollar for every time someone said it to you, amirite?  Continue reading


Robin Williams…

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Rest in Peace, Robin Williams

Robin Williams was found dead in his home yesterday, of an apparent suicide. It’s well-known that he struggled through his life with severe depression. There are very few celebrities that I have felt sorrow as if I almost knew them, but Robin is one of them. I grew up on his movies, and when I’d become an adult, I appreciated his dramatic roles and his very ‘grown-up’ stand-up comedy. I was shocked and saddened to read of his passing. Continue reading

The Addiction of Hatred…

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Yup…gonna have to learn to love this goofball…

It is, by far, easier to hate than it is to love. Hatred becomes an addiction simply for the fact that it requires no effort to maintain. It is much more difficult to love, because it requires us to at least attempt to understand, to make the effort to find ground on which to be compassionate. You might think this is going to be a post on the general quickness of society to hate that which is not understood rather than make the effort to love. It is not.  Continue reading

The Issues: Bullying

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Note: I began writing this about a few weeks ago, after reading an article about a boy who was suspended for wearing a My Little Pony backpack on the grounds that it could cause him to get bullied. After reading that, Facebook’s “People You may Know” feature coincidentally listed a girl who used to bully me in middle school and high school, and that led me to her blog where a post she wrote gave me an insight I’d never had before. This is my experience, and should you ever stumble across her blog, please know that she and I are okay. I do not want, or need, any comments posted on her blog attacking her for what is long in the past. She was not the only one, and she was not by any stretch the worst of my antagonists.  Continue reading

Music is My Medicine…

Blogging Prompt: Do you have music playlists organized by mood? Pick one and describe it.
Song Prompt: My “Songs for the Depressed” playlist

Why yes, I DO have my playlists organized by my mood. Right now, the playlist I have been listening to the most is “Songs for the Depressed”. Contrary to what you may think, there isn’t just sad music on there, and it isn’t a list of the most happy, upbeat songs I could find. Because yeah, I like to listen to songs that will make me feel slightly better about things, but you know what? Sometimes that sadness needs to be fed so that it may be purged in the end. Let’s take a look at my “Songs for the Depressed” playlist… Continue reading

So I Flunked NaBloPoMo…

I didn’t make a post yesterday.

I intended to, but I ended up caving and taking a painkiller for my shoulder (I have a tear in my rotator cuff), and ended up passing out…when I woke up, it was no longer yesterday, but officially today.

However, I posted two entries on the first of November, and I have an ultra-valid excuse for not posting yesterday. I know that technically, I have officially flunked NaBloPoMo, but I feel like I haven’t failed the spirit of it.

Also, the nightmares haven’t stopped and I feel like maybe you guys are tired of reading along as I try to muddle through the depression they’ve thrown me into.

I still hate myself today. Hopefully I’ll get a more meaningful post up later, my second for today.

In Each Regret, and Each Divide…

Blogging Prompt: What is your greatest regret and why?
Song Prompt: “New Divide” – Linkin Park
Lyric Quote: In every loss/in every lie/in every truth that you denied/in each regret/and each divide/was a mistake too great to hide

Biggest regret. What a powerful blog prompt for me today.


Because when you’re stuck in depression, all you’re surrounded with is a view of your mistakes, your failures…your regrets. To pick one is very difficult. And what kind of regrets are we talking about here? The ones over which we had no control, or the biggest mistakes that still haunt us with their ramifications? I have many, many regrets, and they fall under both categories.

But there is one. One I had no control over. One that has echoed down the timeline of my life, like an everlasting ripple. Continue reading