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The Rainbow after the Storm…


My last post was very difficult to write, and shared a very, very hurtful thing that I am still finding myself coping with.

On April 17th, 2016, I found out I was pregnant with my fourth child. I enjoyed the news for 48 hours. On the 19th began ten days of constant blood level monitoring and ultrasounds. I watched my baby develop a sac, a fetal pole…and then he died. On April 29th, I began to miscarry.  Continue reading

Navigating the Abyss…


Allow me to get serious for one post. As briefly touched on in a couple of previous posts, yours truly has post-partum depression. Not baby blues, not winter bummers, but post-partum depression. I became aware of this around Christmas time, maybe even before. Now, I always get a little moody in the winter, and probably have undiagnosed Seasonal Affective Disorder. I don’t like fall after the leaves have dropped and I don’t like winter and spring before the flowers bloom. I don’t like watching the world around me wither and decay. I love watching it be reborn, but I hate watching it die. Continue reading